Hopefully you find such luck too Kamikaze *hugs* those few ppl, a couple of them have things going on which mean they're not online often to talk lately, which causes the horrible abandonment and separation anxiety feelings, but I understand, and my what if diary has helped with that a stack. But every day I check if they're still there, inc today, and they still are, so I'm happy. Even happier when they do message me, but I'll take a small joy, where before I'd have been freaking out about them not being on in x days.