jubttz, the greatest high i have found is putting on a pair of hiking boots and going outside and walking. The endorphines kick in and you feel great. there is something about the human psyche that we are attached to nature and need it to heal. perhaps you might want to put the bong aside for a pair of hiking boots...let beauty sink into your soul and become a part of it.. the birds, the trees, the wind... and you will feel a spiritual element that is missing from being inside all the time... blessings.