I am so hurt. Im married to the man i prayed for and we have been married 11 years. During our 4th year of marriage I found out he has bone cancer. He hid it from me until he became so ill i had to rush him to the hospital. We have a 10 yr old son, anyway, I'm so unhappy, for so many reasons. I used to be a happy, sparky, smily, person. Now I'm always crying and withdrawn.

I go to work and i have no choice but to be open. i come home and I'm sad. i also take care of my husbands niece who has a disability and she is a lot of work to take care of. She has mental retardation and schizophrenia. I don't have a social life. I am just so sad. I don't wanna seem selfish but I'm going crazy inside.

I have no friends because i have no time for them I always come home to sadness.
I'm trying to be strong and not dwell on my circumstances because their are other people less fortunate than me. and I should be thankful and grateful.
so why can't I shake these hurt feelings