I just replied to your post and it mysteriously disappeared.... so I will try again.

Your attraction to your T is totally normal. It might help if you google transference or erotic transference and do some reading on those subjects.

The attraction to T is something that should not hinder therapy; rather you should use it as something to work through. I feel the same way towards my T only I have chosen not to work through it yet because I would rather die. LOL. It doesn't really hinder therapy for me because I have a pretty good understanding of why I feel the way I do. One of my goals is to work through this with him, but I'm just not ready yet.

If you feel ready, then by all means, begin to address this issue with your T. However, don't force anything-- I truly believe that when things are ready to come out, they will.