I drove past my T's house tonight. I'm pretty sure it was her house anyways. A few months ago I googled my T, and one of the things I found was what looked to be her address. I didn't do anything then, but I did think about driving past it. I kept thinking about it once in a while, and tonight I decided to drive past it. She's on vacation this week, so I knew I wouldn't accidentally run into her. Anyways, I feel a bit guilty about this, and I feel like I should tell her about it when she gets back. But I'm worried that if I do, she'll get creeped out or be angry at me. Maybe even stop seeing me? Or set more boundaries? I don't want that to happen, and if I don't tell her, it won't. But I just feel like I should tell her. I'm probably going to drive past it again a time or two before she gets back. It was nighttime when I went past tonight, and I'd like to see it in the day. I would never knock on her door or intrude on her while she's there, but I just like to see her house and see where she lives. Is this how stalkers start? I don't have any intention to stalk her, and I don't want to scare her or make her uncomfortable. That would be another issue with telling her. I don't want to make her uncomfortable, but if I tell her she might feel that way. But I just feel kinda guilty. But at the same time, it's not like I'm doing any harm, I'm just looking at a house. Gah! What should I do?
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