Oh my thor 10 years : O thats scary for me : O i cant imagine being so long on meds.. being on meds for years or whole life scares me like crazy i dont want to be dependend of something or someone for life im taking iron for 1,5 month so far and in already tired of it.. Not mention that i cant keep taking it on the same time, sometimes i take it at 8am, sometimes 4pm.. So i cant imagine taking ssri everymorning for so long.. How big dose of paxil have you had if i may ask?
I had same symptoms which you mentioned after few meds ive tried, + panic attacks so heavy everyday that i was thinking i was dying.. And horrible physical symptoms like shaking so much that i damaged teeth, hot flashes so heavy i couldnt breathe and ripped tshirt, etc.. I dont want to feel this way never again
and meds also killed my creativity, which is one of the worst things that may happen to designer.. I think some months of practicing yoga and meditation helped me finally restore this sparkle of old me and lately i finally designed sth and started to sew again, so i dont want to lose it again