Is it really so bad to drive past your T's house? Your intention was not to stalk but to perhaps to feel connected with her during her vacation, or natural curiosity. You were only looking at a house, not going inside or bothering her. You sound like a good person. If it helps you to feel better, I did something similar, I looked at Google Maps to get an idea of how T's house looks like, though I was too afraid to drive past in real life. It's just a bunch of bricks visible to the public. I also walk to T's office building whenever I miss T and enjoy the soothing atmosphere, then go home with the warm fuzzies. Good luck, I hope everything goes well for you.