In order for me to solve my most important life issues I needed to fully learn to trust my therapist, and that processes lead to an emotional connection with her. In times of stress, and loneliness I would drive by my therapist house to touch base, and would definitely feel better. She had no problem with this. She understood my need and helped me to see I was not harming anyone, and helped me understand why I was doing it. It stopped when I felt more safe and secure. She had no problem with any of her clients fulfilling their needs, wants and curiosities as long as they are not hurting themselves or others. Driving by your therapist house is not a slippery slope to becoming no a stalker. "A stalker, I have not turned into."

My concern for you telling or not telling is the emotional turmoils you are in. If it didn't bother you I would venture to say, don't tell. But, it does bother you, and does nothing to move you forward. Therapy for me was dealing with behaviors that bothered me, and I wanted to change for a better quality of life. Do you TRUST your therapist to be there for you, no matter what you tell her?