Sending you

You're doing great--2 months is a long time! The holidays are a very difficult time for many people--we were just talking about that in marriage counseling today because I've been having a rough time the past couple weeks. MC was saying that holidays can make you yearn for things you know you won't get from people--like connections and understanding (not so much presents).

I like the hearts idea.

I'm sorry you ran into your ex-T and that she was cold toward you. This might sound weird, but the fact that you're feeling anger now at her is probably a good thing. I have trouble with the emotion of anger, and MC has said that depression and anxiety are feelings of helplessness, while anger is more about taking action and empowerment. He's said that when he has depressed clients, he'll try to get them to move from depression to anger rather than first going for happiness. Directing some anger at her is better than directing it at yourself...