I have an inner child who went through my early trauma which I kind of remember/ kind of don't. I certainly don't remember all of the abuse and torture I had from ages 7-10. But my older brother remembers and he tells me what my older cousin did to me. Well lately I have left a notebook out for my alters to write on while I'm in control. And I saw what looked like what a child drew of a monster. I never thought he would come out and whenever he has I come back to consciousness with my mom holding me or now (my dog licking me) and me hiding under a table. Why do you think my inner child drew a monster?