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Wants2Fly said:
Hi Lady M --

His online persona may be imaginary, but your feelings are not.
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THAT TRUE
what a great perception!
but-you seem as if you say that the fact i feel better is an illussion?

you see, when positng this and afterwards writing that lyric, i felt like i...get on my feet and just...go back ot my old self who is...damn don`t know the word in English. let`s say i am Aries and i have a pair of good, hard horns!
i am more independedt and i am opn my own. today i lalready thoguht less about him and more about myself.

yes i do have him on my mind sometimes, but i don`t feel it THAT hard on me..that crazy.

ha! i know myself. i am able to get to a point wherei want not by denying the feelings, but by "braiwashing" myslef and deciding...and doing what i have to do to mentally servive. that means that if right now i need to be angry and lift my chin- i will do it. if i ned to let go of control= i will do it. it just a..i think it something that comes to the oposit feeling . and then there is balance..

you don`t want to know what fantzsys i had about him! (my God how do i spell it? )
they just..wel....ahumm..looking just looking at his face...i imagie i was kissing him....and...it was crazy.
he was SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.
today i had some of that in my imaginaiton but it already wasn`t so sweet. i didn`t enjoy it that much.
let`s say -if then i could enjoy thos feeligs and imaginaiton-then now i can enjoy myself, and my freedom.

maybe one far day i will learn what is true love.