monalisasmile, you are on the road to being a wonderful therapist. So, I think it would be important to you to find a therapist that will allow you to be the client and they do their job as a therapist. Too many posters on PC share their sad stories about therapy failure, and my guess is they have therapist that have not completed their work to heal. Please, don't be one of them, monalisasmile. There is a therapist out there for you. i wish you well in finding him/her.