i do not know how my psychiatrist sees things. i think years ago it was all more apparent to her, but i don't know if she has seen the subtle things over the years or this last year since i wasn't seeing her often for a few years (things were stable for me).

she waits for me to talk about things in general and asks how the dissociation has been, but it is me that really has to say things...and i haven't flat out asked her if she has noticed anything because to me it would feel like i'm fishing for something that she might not think about or isn't necessarily important or i've been afraid she thinks i make things up or act or something.

i have noticed in some sessions for a few seconds where there will be other random voices/tones/things said that are not coming from me..i cannot control it and don't know who it comes from since i don't have communication much anymore and don't know the others much anymore or if there are new ones or if those moments weren't even connected to them maybe..although i'd think so...but for the most part, it is me talking or sometimes some through me..but i do not know if it's that noticeable to her...they have never come out or let her know who they are, etc. so she also wouldn't know unless that happened maybe.