Thanks to all for your ideas.

Echoes, I love the idea of keeping that time special--it's a good one.

Sunny, yes, I often have conversations (in my head) with T!!

But here's the thing that worries me. I now have thoughts of him in my head all the time. It feels obsessive. I don't understand this and it's really bugging me. I feel like a dog, pining for his owner. %#@&#!, this is ridiculous. So, how do I have a conversation or hold onto the love as Almeda says, without feeling obsessive? Why are the feelings so intense?

I wonder if I'm doing something wrong in therapy?

On Tuesday last when I had that awful session, I told my husband that I felt like I failed therapy. He said, there's no crying in baseball and there's no failing therapy, but I'm beginning to feel otherwise.

I'm going to listen to one of my relaxation tapes and cook dinner, but I really feel like crying.



2 weeks, 2 days till my next appointment

1 week, 5 days till I can call.