Thanks, and sorry for replying so late. My problem at the root is that I have never been able to make friends and I don't know what's wrong with me... I don't really understand other people. And it's clear now that listening to music is definitely detrimental to me. Much better quality of life when I DO NOT listen to music. It's strange I know, but the difference is undeniable...I guess it just has a negative affect on my brain psychology... It makes me happy but like an addiction I feel like **** the rest of the day afterwards, it just drains me of energy... and yes, I have been diagnosed with psychosis. I'm convinced that everybody must look at me differently than they look at everyone else. That and other, more severe symptoms, which I do not care to discuss except with maybe a psychologist... thank you for the support though. I hope I can recover over time...