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Old Dec 29, 2015, 08:50 AM
GeekieChic GeekieChic is offline
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I’m 19 years old, and this is my first time getting therapy. I used to be depressed and suicidal two years ago (untreated, undiagnosed - I just stopped feeling that way after six or seven months). Then I had another episode last year in December for about a month (again depressed, considering suicide). That went away once I got into the whole ‘self-help positivity’ craze, and I thought I had somehow cured myself.

But for the past four or five months now, I’ve been having these recurring episodes which are triggered by the smallest of things – my landlord shouts at me, my roommate is being annoying, my flight is delayed – and I completely break down. I start having depressive thoughts about my future, my looks, my lack of a social life... and I start wishing I were dead. These episodes last for a few hours or a few days during which I tend to skip college, some meals, my workout routine, and spend most of my day sleeping or crying.
These episodes are usually spaced out, and don't occur every time something bad or stressful happens (never felt this way during finals or internship interviews or apartment-hunting or anything that gives me a stress migraine). They used to occur once a month, then twice a month, and now it’s happening almost every week for a day or two. I haven't experienced any manic episodes at all.

I went to a therapist last week, and after a psych evaluation (MMPI-2), she said I’m not depressed, but merely highly sensitive, and not bipolar like we’d earlier thought. I’m on vacation now and my next appointment isn’t till the new year, and I’ve just had a depressive episode (last episode was just a week ago, right before I made an appointment with the therapist).

These episodes are making life very difficult for me, and I don’t know how the psych evaluation could have been incorrect. Was it because I took it when I was feeling normal? Should I ask my therapist to do another assessment? Does anyone have any idea what is wrong with me? I can’t live like this, especially not when these episodes are becoming more and more frequent and intense. Please help me.
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