You sound perfectly fine to me. I too have questions and prefer to have conversations well off the beaten path. I know I'm too intense for most people, so I isolate a lot. I explore things through my writing and, once upon a time, through reading a lot and watching films of a dark and/or exploratory nature. I've had so many experiences that do not add up to a tidy sum. There's nothing neat and orderly about my life. The best we can do is the best we can do. You can message me any time you like. I'm pretty difficult to shock, scare or bewilder. I'll send you a PM and a friend request, in case you don't see this response. Hang in there.