I have a fairly good pdoc. My town has a severe pdoc shortage so fairly good is a big blessing. Where I used to go I had to wait six months or more between pdoc appts. This one is much, much better. She was thinking bipolar 2 before I was hospitalized, but I had been resistant. I didn't believe it, so unconsciously I did everything I could to make her doubt it too.
Now, I am on lithium, lamictal, a prn for anxiety. Also I am being weaned off effoxer.
My therapist (i see weekly) recommended journaling and outside peer support online which is how I ended up here. I do both.
I have a terrible problem admitting pain, weakness, or I need help. I am applying food stamps today. I am ashamed my financial situation has gotten so bad. I should be handling this better. If I hadn't spent so much when manic, I wouldn't be in this position. I was taught to never ask for financial help from the government. This is very difficult for me. I obsess about my bills constantly.
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Originally Posted by marylandmomma
I don't like being manic either. I hate feeling so full of rage and out of control. I started taking lithium on 11/24 and I've been amazed at how much better I feel. I just started lexapro for my depression and anxiety. I also journal and see a therapist weekly.
Are you on meds and seeing a pdoc?
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