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Originally Posted by smartiesparty
i am stuck
the others are at college studying subjects they're interested in and they go to parties with a lot of new people.
i'm stuck with different mental issues. nobody will ever find a cure
i spend the days inside and i know nothing will ever get better
i am a burden
i am very jealous of others my age. why did i have to have this illness? my body deteriorated. i have the body of a 85 year old because the illness destroyed me
i'm jealous of healthy people. they travel but i can't because i feel dizzy and nauseous when i leave bed. my days are rhythmed by muscle pain, nausea, diarrhea, severe stomach pain and depression coupled with too many intense emotions.
i want to explore but i can just watch others live
they re living what i want. they all think i'm faking it because it cant be that a young person has these issues. i'm so jealous of healthy people
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You can find a therapist who is not horrible like the other one you mention! Chronic pain and illness is difficult to deal with, at any age. If you have to stay bed-ridden, can you take classes online? Try to work with what you have. Don't give up, it may be possible to have an ease in some of these symptoms so you can travel and do more of what you want to do. Most people in college are lonely and stressed, even if they portray themselves as having wonderful lives and no problems. Some of your physical problems might ease if you get help for the depression. Don't give up on the life that you want. While I haven't had a debilitating chronic illness, I have dealt with mental illness my whole life and had a bad bout of IBS when I was in a very stressful life situation. It took me a lot longer than most people to finish my degree, but it didn't matter in the end. I have a really happy life now and it took work but I'm glad I didn't give up. It might be more difficult, or take longer, or mean readjusting your expectations but you don't have to settle for a life that is unfulfilling.
