just got back from seeing T. shes had me do a lot of hw based on trying to identify emotions within myself. today i received hw to receive comfort from my wife. now i give her comfort all the time. i hold her, hug her and would do anything to help her be happy, but i dont know how to take comfort in those same embraces.

i give it willingly but i dont know how to take it.i know in those embraces i should feel a comfort and safety ad caring just as she does, yet i dont. i dont know how. nothing has ever been about me adn ive always been just let everyone else come first and theres never any me.im really struggling with this and its very upsetting that something as simple as comfort i cant even take.

i feel i have no one to relate to. there literally is no one in the world who has gone through all i have. there are ppl who have similarities and ppl who have gone through some of it yet no one who could 100% kno what it feels like or anything. i am in a world on my own with millions of ppl around whom i cannot relate to.

i never learned comfort and how it feels to have someone there who cares and loves unconditionally. its awkward because i give my wife all of that and then some but i have no idea if its the same coming back. i am so clueless and out of touch. i mean seriously how broken am i that i cant take comfort in a damn hug.

no one need bother answering, there is no answer only my mistake of living.