I think, for me, the power didn't come from authority but more of a f*cked up dependent love (platonic). When you love someone and want to feel safe with them, you ignore a lot of things that would normally be red flags. I was vulnerable from the beginning: isolated, depressed, barely functioning, and scared. So yes, I think I gave my power away quickly. I was desperate to feel like I mattered.
Plus I was not paying her, which made this more skewed.
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