(((Sunny,Esther,Secret,Echoes)))

Secret, please come back I miss you almost as much as T.

Thanks so much for your responses--they are really, really helping me to work through these feelings!!

So much so, that I figured something out today. The intense feelings and the feeling that I did something wrong--those emotions are coming from my inner child. My little girl self is really hurting right now. She feels abandoned and she feels like she did something wrong to cause T to go away. Just like children whose parents go away/divorce and they blame themselves. I have to soothe her and help her to realize that she is good and loveable, and that she didn't do anything wrong. I can't wait to discuss this with T. We have talked about my inner child on several occasions and have done some inner child work.

Of course, that's today....I wonder what tomorrow will bring? It still feels so far away till I can see him.



2 weeks, 2 days till my next appointment with T

1 week, 5 days till I can call him