As painful as it is, you are continuously reaching insight with Ts absence... continue to allow yourself to look forward to sharing it with him when he returns.

As far as the inner child thing... I can totally empathize with you in regards to feeling like you "did something wrong." When I heard my pdoc wants me to go for a 2nd opinion, T and I talked about how the little girl felt abandoned... and regardless of how rationally I tried to think about it or how much I hate my pdoc anyway... all I could say was, "What did I do wrong that he wants to get rid of me?"

Hang in there. You are doing great.