I think you are showing remarkable strength, especially during what sounds like a particularly rough period. I'm glad you are staying safe, and well done for being SI free for two months! That is a great achievement, and you should definitely reward yourself like Cinnamon suggested. You deserve it. You also deserve love, as you are definitely loveable. Stay strong and brave! You can do it!


Funny, that. My uni therapist keeps saying how she wants me to be angry. She encourages any and all anger; I once told her that she had made me angry, and her response to that was, "Good!" She seems to think I need to be angry about the injustice of everything I have been through in my life so far, in order to work through it, but all I can feel is sadness. Growing up with undiagnosed bipolar disorder I have felt plenty of anger, and it never did me any good. I have screamed and cried and yelled, which caused nothing but grief. I can't see how anger will benefit me, at this point, but maybe it will once I'm done grieving.

But I digress!