i am feeling so sentimental tonight. am so full of emotions. I have wasted so many years feeling guilty over my mom and my pets' deaths. I know I tried but I made mistakes but for how much longer am I going to punish myself? it's been over 15 years of misery. I withdrew from the world. I am a good person. i miss my friends and having fun. my ex brother in law and a former coworker died this year. none of us know how much time we have left on this earth. I don't want to waste anymore time being sad...