I'm an 18 year old woman with Asperger's Syndrome and a survivor of sexual assault when I was young (8).
I've never been in love. I've never seen anyone, male or female, who I thought was attractive. Not that I think everyone is ugly - I don't think anyone is ugly, just like I don't think anyone is pretty. Faces are just faces, what's ugly or pretty or attractive about it? I mean, it's just a face.
I think sex is for dirty old men and for people who want kids.
I've never masturbated.
I don't understand attractiveness - if I read about someone thinking x has a great bum, I think 'what's so attractive about a bum?' I sort of get why men would be attracted to breasts - it's a sign someone is (getting) ready to bear children, so it's biologically explainable - but a bum? Or legs? Or ..?
Am I just asexual? Am I too young (I read somewhere people with an autism spectrum disorder tend to start puberty late)? Does it have to do with the trauma? Am I weird?
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