thanks guys. I've just been having a rough time with panic recently and the only way I know to make the feeling stop quickly is SI. I've also been having nights that if I close my eyes all I see is images of me cutting myself, or different ways to SI without cutting will just keep flashing through my mind. I'm so scared of giving in, but I know that it's the only way to feel calm/okay at times. I still haven't given in, but its been really tempting lately.