thanks raynaadi...... i've had times in the past when i drank too much, dont think i'm an alcoholic but when i was younger i definitely abused alcohol to an extent. i know she's having a hard time, and i know how it feels to want to drown your sorrows..... i also know she's a good person and has so much to offer, and i want to see that potential realized..... if i have to drink a mountain dew with my chinese food instead of a corona, so be it.....

p.s. i had another friend who had histrionic personality disorder and was a severe alcoholic...... there'd be a glass of wine in front of her yet she'd swig from the bottle on the table....... i tried to be supportive and help but she wouldnt have any of it and cut me out of her life. no idea where she's at now. ever since that experience...... i'm not losing anymore friends to this crap. i can sacrifice a dinnertime beer if it might help my friend get back on track.......