You are just going through a bad patch Angelique67 - "This too shall pass." I appreciate your vulnerability. I am sad too. I am also feeling like a chicken. I met someone who is gentle and brilliant, and wants to learn about life with me. I haven't risked being vulnerable for a long time. It is time to bring more joy in to my life when I have the ashes of my marriage that I tried to reconcile for six years and the ashes of trying to have my birth family in my life. I am still that little girl but my world is different.