honestly, the only reason i'm even trying is because right now i am obese, and i'm sick of it. i'm basically shutting myself in my parents house until i lose the weight. if i don't lose enough weight by spring i will be spending another year inside not going out because of embarrassment and not having a life/job/education/friends/boyfriend. and i don't think that i would live another year like that. so that's the fire lit under my @$$ right now.

i've lost 30 pounds already, but it's not enough. just barely a dent. (sigh)