So approximately 5 yrs ago I went into a bad mania that led to a psychosis. Long story but nothing could get me to sleep. Finally I was put on 15 mgs of zyprexa as well as 50 mgs of hydroxyzine, and 300 mgs of trazadone. I had the zyprexa added about a yr ago. Before the addition of the zyprexa I still really struggled without sleep on and off. With the zyprexa I sleep but have also gained about 30lbs.

Lately I've been sleeping and sleeping, so I've decreased the zyprexa first to 10 mgs and I was still sleeping a lot and now I'm down to 5 mgs. I'm so happy about this as I hope to come off the zyprexa and lose some of this weight gain.

I also feel more like myself pre psychosis. I feel like I'm not hopeless with no life. I can get better! Have any of you had similar experiences? After the psychosis I was so vulnerable and felt so lost. Like zero self esteem. But now I'm feeling so much better. Anyone relate?