My T did give me some direction. She told me to ask to be held whether it be in and embrace like a hug or spooning it didn't matter. She said I could set a timer for 1min if it made me feel better.

I don't really feel it to be a trust thing. My wife knows the majority of my past. It's more of a every time I think of asking to be held she's in a bad place and she is in need of my comfort. We hug all the time and just stand there hugging. But for some reason I don't feel it proper accepting any comfort when I'm giving it, be it a hug or cuddling or anything. It just never feels like I should ask for comforting when she's In need of comfort.