my mother told me i am the fakest person on this planet
that i faked my depression
the reason is i decided to go on a 4 day trip on my own to belfast (i'm of legal age)
i think it's good to be on my own. i did everything possible to be safe during the trip. it's to see a new city. i need this "fresh breeze" in my life. i have stayed at home for the past 3 years.
but now she says i never was depressed and i'm just pretending
then i said i'm going on my own to feel more "free" because my family criticized me often (also, i forgot to add, my chronic pain isnt too intense now) . she understood it as "i hate my family and they're all piece of crap", which i never said
i was looking forward to the trip ive been planning since last year
my mum told me i'll get sexually assaulted if i go alone and kidnapped. and now i'm having panic attacks 2 days before the planned trip
i am having suicidal thoughts and panic attacks. i won't act on them but they still hurt my soul. i'm scared to be kidnapped and sexually assaulted (my biggest fears)
please help me, what should i do ?
Last edited by smartiesparty; Dec 31, 2015 at 08:50 AM.
|