Feeling like our arms and hands are backwards, like we are tilting to the side but we are sitting straight up. For days now body memories have hit hard, our left arm and shoulder feel as though it is dislocated once again from the socket.

I try to fight through the pain, fight off the tears that used to never even make notice they were present, but now they push at me from deep within, from a place I don't understand yet I do.

Those within screaming at times, other times a deafening silence. Sometimes it days like this I want to disappear forever........for everyone sake......would it really matter at all? Tears fall as silently we disappear out of the way......

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