3RMF, although I have never met you, I don't believe that you look worse than a regular person. I am pretty sure it is the way you see yourself that is the real problem. I was bullied at school too and it took me years to recover from it. I did go to college and there I was deeply amused how people were not making fun of me and treating me like a normal person. I am educated now and doing quite well, while the people who have bullied me at school didn't achieve much by now. Now the joke is on them.

I would reconsider going to college if I were you. I know it can get very expensive in the US, but in Europe university education is either free or very affordable (except the UK). Think what YOU want to do and what YOU want to be. Being motivated and determined can get you very far in life.

And regarding the looks... What is it that you do not like in yourself? Is it your weight, your hair or the way you dress? Most of these things can be corrected, you just need to find the right style that would make you look good and feel confident.