So I essentially have a history of nervous breakdowns. I had my first after a breakup a few years ago and I'm dealing with one now due to work.

I started my career in 2005 at a government contractor which is a stone's throw away from a government job so it was not exceptionally difficult. It wasn't the finance job I went to school for so I kind of didn't get fully into it, but the benefits were awesome and I loved the people I worked with. I was never a superstar, but I wasn't terrible and would get pretty good reviews. Due to the comfort and unfortunately the economic downturn I stayed at this job for 9 years. Finally left and got that financial analyst job I wanted (making nearly 6 figures in California bay area dollars) at a startup here. I proceeded to suck at the job and my first performance review was pretty bad. That is when the second nervous breakdown occured. I've been dealing with severe anxiety ever since. I left that job thinking the startup environment was just too much for me, but I'm finding this job to be not much better. I'm coming to the conclusion I suck at analytics. Through all of this I don't remember the last time I felt normal. I've been a big ball of stress for the last year and a half.

So I decided this wasn't for me and am looking to transition to IT as I I am somewhat computer savvy. The problem is I will be starting over and my salary could be cut in half. I just feel stuck and no option I have can seem to cure the anxiety. My wife is very supportive, but at the same time I can tell she is very worried about a potential major drop in income. If it was just me it wouldn't be quite as bad, but I feel like I am dragging her into my mess. I just don't know how or if I can ever build myself back up. Just wanted to see if anyone has been successful in a career restart or have been able to pick themselves back up after major setbacks.