Trigger warning!

Last night I was mostly conscious at two in the morning when I got hit by another flashback. This was the most violent and emotional one yet. Being ripped out of bed, pinned down, and raped. My body moving with his involuntarily..... Feeling him inside me moving..... Crying. Being yelled at that if I didn't stop crying he would give me something to cry about. Watching him leave the room and me curling into the fetal position sobbing, until I fell back to sleep.

My therapist doesn't feel qualified to handle these memories and I don't have anyone else I can talk to. Supposed to start emdr in two weeks but how am I supposed to cope until then?

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