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Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets
Feeling like our arms and hands are backwards, like we are tilting to the side but we are sitting straight up. For days now body memories have hit hard, our left arm and shoulder feel as though it is dislocated once again from the socket.
I try to fight through the pain, fight off the tears that used to never even make notice they were present, but now they push at me from deep within, from a place I don't understand yet I do.
Those within screaming at times, other times a deafening silence. Sometimes it days like this I want to disappear forever........for everyone sake......would it really matter at all? Tears fall as silently we disappear out of the way......
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I am sorry you are in so much pain. Body memories are difficult. I have body memories but no knowledge of what happened to cause them. Someone knows but no one will say anything. I think if my parts with the body memories could talk to the parts with the assault memories, they could heal. And fall back into the past where they are supposed to be. Just a memory of emotional pain and physical assault. I truly think that would happen. At some point they need to know that they did a good job protecting when we needed it in the past. But are now safe in the present. I am afraid to remember so I am stuck with flashes of pain and vague fractured images in my mind. I hope your system can work things out. When I am in pain It helps me to remind myself that in this present moment I am safe. In my home, in my chair, with my dog, I am safe. Feel better. You are safe.