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Originally Posted by scar12346
So I'm not diagnosed just yet but I'm on my way at it.
The issue is that one of my altars that is now gone for good, couldn't
keep his mouth shut and told a lot of people about it. And I lost
a lot of friends because I thought that I'm faking it. I however
do not feel like I am faking it.. or at least I didn't. I've been
having doubts but Waidth has been such a sweetheart and always made
sure that I know that they are real. That we are real. I will discuss
it with my psychologist. Anyways.. we've been reading a lot about
other people's systems.. and how they are missing some time? Now we
all are missing almost 7 years of our lives but it's because that
none of us are cores.. But time lost has never been an issue to
neither of us. Is it just us? Or maybe we are a very small system
with just three of us going out and one managing everything and
two on the side. Are we just good in managing stuff and team working?
Or is DID not the case for me?
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I see that your location is Bulgaria. what Im posting may be different for your location .
here in the USA here in the USA a person must have more than one alter so the alter that is now gone will not be part of the diagnosing process if you were here in the USA. my point you no longer have to worry about that alter because they are gone.
I am surprised that the alter told others about your system im sorry that happened to you, my system was built on keeping secrets, do not tell or threat of harm (something my abusers told me which in part made it so that none of my alters would tell and if I tried my alters would become suicidal or self injuring)
Im a bit confused because in my location the term core is used to define who the body born person is. do you mean none of you are the body born person or do you mean none of you take responsibility for being the one mostly in control?
Im also confused because you stated you lost 7 years but then state time loss has never been an issue. do you mean that you used to remember those 7 years and now that memory is gone, now that the alter is gone?
Here in the USA this memory problem would not be part of having DID. here what happens when an alter is gone everything that was the alter that is gone becomes part of the others, nothing is lost, everything is gained with healing.
I also read your other posts and Im a bit confused. in this one you say there is only 3 (the body born and two on the side?) but in another post you list 6, did three recently integrate? My alters are all integrated. if these three integrated it may seem a bit strange and confusing so wanted you to know that you are not alone.
please dont take my post as a diagnosis. only your treatment providers can say whether you have a mental disorder or not.
what I can say is that everything you posted can be any number of normal, mental or physical health problems, which is why Im glad that you posted that you will be talking with your psychologist.
in the mean time just continue to go according to what ever your psychologist says is going on with you already. they are the ones that can help you the most. i can understand how reading online can cause a person to compare their system to others, but here in the USA we have a saying...everyones system is comprised how ever they needed it to be in order for their body and system to survive..
my point dont worry if your system is different than what you are reading. there are many different normal, mental and physical health issues that are comprised of many different types of alters.