Update: yesterday was my last session at the old office. When I see T again in 2 weeks, it will be at the new office. She's told me that her new office is smaller. I wondered aloud what furniture she would and wouldn't be taking with her. I also wondered which art that I have grown so used to in the old place, will be up on the walls in the new place. When I got there yesterday, there were boxes all over (they are moving today), and everything was a mess. It was very anxiety-provoking for me; I was actually shaking. I talked about how her office had always been a place of stability for me, even though the sessions were not always pleasant. It was still something, sometimes the only thing, that I could count on, first weekly, then every two weeks. I've been seeing her in that office for many years. She suggested I try meditation for the anxiety, as it arises. And I said that, "next year" I would endeavor to concentrate more on things I can change, not things I cannot; this move harkened back to other times in my life when I was not in control of various situations. It made me feel excluded, and uncared for. I told her about some of the discussions here about gift-giving, and that I MIGHT give her a gift for her new place...or, I might not. In her office, I saw a big pile of papers that she was either throwing out or recycling. It made me think that maybe I should try cleaning my house as if I were moving, and couldn't take everything with me. Sorry, I think I'm rambling. HNY.