I drank a whole bottle of wine but I'm not drunk. I can think clearly. Why can't I get drunk? It's not like I drink that often. I almost never drink.

Life sucks. I hate new years eve. Can I just kill my asshole brother and his ''friends'' who are too loud in our yard. They're keeping me awake. I want to sleep. I want this night to be over.

I hate myself. I hate life. I feel so lonely. I just want someone who likes me. Who has my back. I don't want to be this lonely.