I'll apologize for my lack of grammar and punctuation in advance and Time tenses.

I'll start my story from the beginning. During year 12 , I began smoking marijuana and i enjoyed it , many of friends were smoking alot and getting quite high while i decided to pace myself and smoke myself were i would be calm and had slight Euphoric rush.This lasted for about one year , however one time , i had a bit too much to smoke , I knew i wasn't myself and i was very surprised and scared on how 'high' i was. During this period I experienced many things which i wouldn't have wanted to see . The Most important and Terrifying was my life review (Im not sure whether are familiar with the phrase but this link should clarify what a Life review is http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Life_review )

Now after seeing something like this , I presume some people would take this a positive factor and try to improve their lives realising to what path their future was taking them(which i tried to do) ,except my life review was a negative experience (as if i lived my life with many regrets), and to make matters even worse then what they were I died some where were i didnt expect to die or even that early. Now , once i had died i could still 'think'(As if i was a ghost or something along those lines) and i began to think on how i had let my friends and family down , Dropped out of my course and done soo many stupid things.

The next day i was extremely depressed after that experience , and since i was home alone for the next few days , i took that day off school trying to recover and began to analyze my dream. Now my grammar and sentence structure aren't the best , but i find myself quite intellectual and think quite logically and tend to keep an unbiased view to almost everything when it comes to judging. So common sense was telling me it was just a high and had no relevance to my life what so ever. Yet i was having doubt's... What i had experienced was felt soo real , People behaved identically to their personalites , everything was identical to that in the real world. It was perfect, too perfect. I didn't know what to do... What i had just saw/experienced was not normal but not unheard of , except for one thing , most people experienced this during near death situations and it was thier whole life from their childhood to that point , yet mine was different though. I saw from the current present to the future... to my death , which felt not very far away. I was terrified , I didn't know what to do .. who to confide in , I knew i couldn't talk with my parents about this issue for a multiple of reasons and there were no friends i could rely on who would take this seriously(teenagers). The experience was in a totally different level for myself to comprehend with my intellect and common sense and i doubt i could come to a resolution. Yet , I wanted to try - I analyzed what my dream meant , i took Religion , Science , My Unconscious self and even Science Fiction and even a Mental disease/s or just a crazy high into account. Every lame answer i came up with was not enough , too mediocre it didn't satisfy me and before long my long weekend was over and i had to go back to school (I have fridays off and this dream happened on Thursday , So i had 4 days to dwell on it)

I was angry/frustrated and scared that i didn't come up with a resolution but i knew dwelling on it too much would do nothing , i had to carry on with my life . I decided to go back to my course and everything seemed normal for a few days. After a few days of just occasional dwelling i thought it was nothing to worry about , it was just something what a teenager on some weed would think of , my mind slowly came to peace with itself.

But around a week after my 'Life Review" it hit me - "It was during a class mine and a discussion(more of a debate or arguement) broke out between a few students and the teacher and all of a sudden i had a HUGE sense of deja vu , I knew exactly "word for word" that people would say and followed the conversation trying to digest what was going on , It was extremely scary and i was hit by shock, It felt like my life was like a movie , and that i was watching it a second time. At that point i went into a panic attack , i knew this wasnt normal - I knew people most people had experienced Deja Vu , but nothing what i was feeling. Logic and common sense fell apart , i tried to calm myself , but i couldn't , my mind was a being of it it's own , as if it was a seperate entity. I packed up all my books and as calmly as i could i walked out of my class , shaking like a rattlesnake and extremely pale. I didn't know what to do - I knew deep down that this wasn't a coincidence and that my 'life review' was showing myself something... The future , but it was just too ridiculous ,(I tried to use a different word instead of "future" but it was the only word that came to mind). From then on i felt deja vu very often , yet nothing as shocking as that discussion but still very creepy and traumatizing. I began to argue with myself , Like i was some sort of prophet or clairvoyant or something while my other self tried to shrug the idea off as silly.

For the next few weeks, i haven't felt any situations which held a great importance to me, whether it's because i can barely remember of what happened or because there's nothing important happening at this moment or for some other reason which im not aware of. I honestly don't know. I do know that i still feel deja vu quite often and i'm still very moody , from being normal to depressed and my mind is still not clear. I still feel very unfit mentally and i have a really bad feeling in my heart , like it's weighing me down , plus a few other symptoms

Then , about one month and half have passed and my conflict is still unresolved - i had extreme cases of mood swings and my mind is constantly battling with itself and i was being torn apart and depressed.

Now , after all these incident's on the outside I've kept a straight face , I've laugh at peoples jokes , ate dinner with the family and went about being a normal teenager , Yet on the inside it feels as if my mind is split into 2 , One being good and the being evil trying to resolve my dream... Most people would just shrug it off as a dream and continue their life , I wish it could be that easy. Deep down i believe that dream of mine is true , or at least half true and my heart aches , Whether i wanted to see what i saw isn't very important and nothing i can do will make my ignore it. Yet what i have written is just a portion of what's happened so far.

Now the reason i came to the this forum was to get some people's opinions because seriously , I cant confide in my friends because i know they wont take me seriously and that i was just "High". Hopefully here, I can get some unbiased answers and/or recommendations and advice.

I've got to admit , Writing about it all took a large load off my chest. Thank you for the support in advance