I'm a mom with two amazing boys and a husband whom I love. I have been treated for depression since November 2012. Most days I do well but others days not do much. This time of year (winter) is particularly hard with shorter days of sunlight. I have acquaintances and some friends but no one I can count on as being a close or best friend. My closest confidant that I would trust with my life outside of my husband is my therapist.

I invited family over for Christmas Eve because I can't be alone with just my core family. I feel the need to create the environment and memories for my boys and myself that I never had as a child. To feel valued and loved.

I had plans this New Year's Eve to spend with another family but they cancelled last minute. I kept myself busy today but now I'm sitting here typing this holding back the tears. I've never felt so alone in my life. I hate this time of year.