Your stories are proving to be invaluable and enlightening to me.

My situation is that I feel like I am at the end of my rope. My marriage is falling apart after 28 yrs, my depression seems not to be responding to my meds, (although which came first is a good guess) I am not sleeping well, started drinking again to medicate myself.(after being sober for 16 years) and am scaring my family and, quite frankly, myself.

After the two suicide attempts (and I stress, in retrospect, they were really attempts -- I knew I was just trying to scare my husband) I just didn't know what to do. My pdoc was on vacation (figures) and his on-call replacement urged my husband to take me to the hospital for observation. I was scared at the idea and my husband didn't want to make me feel worse, so we didn't go.

That was two weeks ago and my mood has not gotten better and my pdoc thinks I would benefit by a little "vacation" at the hospital. He keeps saying it's not a bad place to be and I will feel better when I get out. At least he is not insisting -- I do think he believes that I was not seriously trying to harm myself -- but of course, people who are not serious do suceed -- by accident.

I am petrified that I will be shot full of drugs and be scared all the time and have a really negative experience.

I just don't know about the hospital that he is recommending me too I guess that's one of my biggest worries.