"...Also because T doesn't say much so I wonder what she thinks of me. Maybe she knows something about me that I don't, or she knows the answers to all my problems and she is waiting for me to bring it up/ be ready to talk about it?"

I've asked my therapist a few times what's behind things she says (or doesn't say) so that I can better understand where she is with things. She's always answered me. I'm not always thrilled when there's a lack of detail, but some of that comes from the fact that therapy is not exact by nature. It has helped me, though, just to ask what her thinking is and if she's using a technique or not. If you don't feel comfortable asking in person, can you ask any of these things in an email?