I live on Long Island NY and I am looking for a psychologist who has experience working with DID patients. I am having a lot of episodes of derealization. I can remember what day I did what. Today I don't remember if I took my medication. I asked my system but no one knows for sure. I barely remember what I did for the entire day. I have started a new job but once I am home or off for a few days it's like starting over when I get to work. I take notes but I forget that I have the notes. It's like being there for the first time. Last I worked days back to back and that helped but that is not my usual schedule. I am not grounded and am not certain how to get grounded. Ice. It's ice. Now I remember. But I doubt I will when I need it. Before knowing I have a system I thought my brain was imploding. Toward my seeking help I was at the end of my ability to navigate around the moods and the thoughts. Now that I know I have a system I have gotten lazy about being and acting as one self. Now parts pop in and out with rhyme or reason. I had a dr's appoint last with a dr I haven't seen in years. When she came in to speak with me I was very nervous and wanted to hide. She asked me if I was anxious. I told her yes but when I get very anxious I withdraw. See my demeanor didn't correlate with my level of anxiety. I felt small and like I needed to be still. I never was like that in a dr's office. I just need to find the me I have been for the past twenty years. Sort of a collection of all of us with a united front. Where thoughts could be in my head but I didn't become them. I don't know how to get back to beginning strong and decisive. I don't know who else to talk to about this. So if anyone knows of any psychologist or social workers with experience with DID patients who live in Long Island ny please let me know. No psychiatrist please. I think most of them are nuts. I don't do pvt messaging. But in this case that would be fine. Thanks