Yes we are very similar lol.

I was told when I was new that I could borrow my sponsor's higher power if I needed to haha. She asked me if I believed that SHE believed in a higher power and I did, because she had almost 5 years sober haha. So because I believed that she believed, I could borrow hers. But I started developing my own concept shortly after.

Its funny that you mentioned the praying, because that was going to be my next topic on 3 & 11. Praying. I don't say the written prayers....when I was working 3, my sponsor told me to memorize the third step prayer, but I didn't like all the thy's and thou's and wildst lol. Then in the following paragraph, the book says we can create our own wording, so thats what I did. I have my own little prayers, and its more like just talking to HP. I ask for direction and things like that, but its never the same wording. Or when I'm scared, like if I'm driving in a storm, I'll say outloud "Hey God you got my back right? Ok thanks." LOL!! When I've shared in meetings that I talk to God as though God is sitting next to me my friend joking whispered "That's schizophrenia" LOL!!!

When I'm frustrated about something, my version of the 3rd step is just to look up and say "I'm done!! Take it!!"

I believe that I have a higher power and you have a higher power etc. I believe that if something is going on with me and someone else, that the higher powers talk about it. Since I'm a selfish alcoholic, I want my own!! LOL!!

I just know that my concept of my HP evolves all the time. I love that. My concept grows as I grow. I'm glad we seemed to have found a safe place to talk about this.