With thanksgiving in November, my wife's birthday in early December, then Xmas, & new year I made a promise to myself that I would hold on through the holidays. I was at a New Year's eve party at my church tonight & the closer it got to midnight the more I felt my mental state deteriorating. I normally work the night shift so it had nothing to do with being tired. Now that the new year is here I don't know how much longer I can survive. I tried to unplug this weekend and not get on Facebook or this message board or text yet here I am. I don't even know why I'm posting this.
Hospitals are for those that want to live. I don't know if I want to or not. The more I think about it the worse I feel.