Evaluna

I'd say that it was an incredibly brave thing you did so please try not to "beat yourself up" for it
There can be a side of depression all about "negative self thoughts", "feelings of worthlessness", "self blame/feeling at fault/feeling weak for not being able to do/to feel........." so why perpetuate that by feeling ashamed or embarrassed by not letting someone else close to you/a friend/friends know??
Depression shouldn't be anything to be ashamed of or embarrassed about.
Depression doesn't mean you're a weak person (there are some incredibly strong people out there suffering from depression!!), it doesn't have to mean that you're at fault, it doesn't have to mean that you're to blame for it
Sure it might mean that some extra support from friends might help you (might help you a lot!!), but if you'd e.g. had an accident then you wouldn't feel as embarrassed about asking for some extra support then right??? And you didn't ask for the problems going on with the depression either
And you know, that's what friends should be about...........extending understanding/support when it's needed, about being there for each other............just like I'm guessing you've done for them too, right??
And if some of those friends back away, can't "get it", misjudge you, then that's about their weakness.........if you can get the support of at least one true friend in this, then that really is the least you deserve. But regardless, SO WELL DONE on speaking up about it!!!
True respect!!!
And maybe you have inspired someone else on here to speak up to someone who can really matter to them about what's going on for them too
Really hope it goes well with your/any of your friends but you'll definitely find people on here who are here for you too.



Alison