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Originally Posted by YMIHere
I think at least a portion of what makes it easier is that despite my issues - when I don't dwell on them, I think I'm a pretty fabulous person lol. 
What I mean is, I don't much care what other people think of me. This is me, take it or leave it. |
It's great that you can feel and think that way. It will serve to protect you somewhat. I've been trained to worry about what everyone thinks of me, of what I look like, etc. But I used to think I was pretty great sometimes, even so. These days, I don't think much of myself at all. The people I loved left me for not being how they wanted, not being a perfect provider. I don't like existing. There's no worth in it for me. Everything is so arbitrary.
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Now the PROBLEM is when some of these things really OUGHT to be changed, but I don't want to.
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I work/ed my ***** off for people I care about, but it doesn't make a difference, so you're probably better off not exhausting yourself, lol. (Don't listen to me - I'm seriously bitter and jaded at this point.)
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But that particular thing has been an issue since I moved to Florida. In NY, nobody ever complained about how direct I was as long as I got shyt done. When I first moved here I was told I need to "throw a little sweetness in my voice" when I answer the phone. They told me it sounds like people are bugging me (they were - phones were not my job).
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I've lived here all my life, and I hate that kind of stuff. Selling my soul, basically, and encouraging a lack of authenticity, but what can we do? That's how the world is. No wants the reality. It's not the commodity in demand.
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In NY - XYZ Company, this is Cynthia. How can I help you?
In Florida they expect - Good morning! Thank you for calling XYZ Company, this is Cynthia, how can I help you? And make sure that sounds all sugar and light. BLECCH!
So what it boils down to is I'm good at my job and in MY mind, that should really be enough, but apparently it isn't and that is one of the causes of my strife.
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I've worked at my current place for a while, so I can at least be less un-me with the people I know. I can answer the phone like, "You have needs?" or, "What's up?"
